TriDaddy

Ryan came down with a fever after he slept for about 2 hours. Wifey was concerned as he seldom fall sick. Gave him some paraceptamol and gave him 8oz of glucose as he refused to take his milk.

It seems funny (and heart wrenching) to see him constantly sighing (for his age), breathing heavily and his pulse strong (can't say it's fast as toddlers has higher than normal heartbeat anyway).

"want milk?", I asked.

"Mai", he answered

Mai is hokkien for don't want.

"want bina?", i asked again.

"Ai!", he called out.

Ai is hokkien for want.

Gave him what he wanted as i was more concerned about getting his temperature down.

At his 21 month age, he is like a parrot now. He repeats anything you say, or ask him to say.

I've been teaching him basic words in English, Chinese and Malay.

He can complete the last word in any song i sang to him, which he is familiar with. That includes most nursery rhymes, some patriotic songs, some cheering songs.

Just yesterday morning, i thought him Selamat Pagi Papa.

He can't say it in full yet, but he can manage it word by word.

Semamat. Pagi. Papa.

Such joy to listen.

But having him sick, eventhough it is just fever, gets me all worried and worked up. Plus, he seems to be having some allergic reaction to something, but i just don't know what it is, his eyes swell form time to time and his lips too will swell at times.

Nadia, on the other hand, seems to be contended and growing up really fast. She knows how to smile involuntarary already. Talk to her and coo coo with her and she will reply with smile.

Such joy to see.

She has been breastfeeding really well. It might still be too premature to see if this breastfeeding frenzy will work until much later, but as it is, it seems to be working really well; compared to Ryan, that is.

Unlike Ryan, Nadia seems to have her eyes open even past 12am. In short, she is like me, refusing to sleep until past 12. Ryan is more like wifey, knocks out after 10.

I guess there is some truth in the sense that the kids will be closer to their parents of the opposite sex.

At this point, i really don't know what to do if i do not have them in my life. Which adds to my misery thinking if Ryan is better and if the allergy is something to worry about.

After Ryan and Nadia, i have to give a standing ovation to wifey. I can't deny the fact that home has been a touch and go for me for as long as i've been working in this office. I spend more physical time at workplace than at home.

Wifey has been singlehandedly handed the hard to handle Ryan and ever demanding Nadia. No less thanks to my mum in law and my own mum for helping out as well. But at times, we can't help but to think that one granma is biased towards one grandchild. Wifey and me decided that instead of looking at it negatively, at least we can see that either one of them will be loved more by the other party. Sticky la this subject.

"OK, I go home for a while, see you tomorrow", jested one of my guys.

It hit me really hard when he said that two days ago.

It goes to show that we've been clocking in way too much time at work. I for one has nothing less than 12 hours in my timesheet per day. Stuck in middle management is a hard thing to do, neither here nor there. Either do it or don't. I guess i still have a long road to prove myself to this company. Come 20th August, it marks my 1 year in this company. How times flies.

How how things changed.

This time last year, i was still busy trying to secure a job. I was also clocking in good running mileage on the Penchala highway in the middle of the day. Those days, i averaged 70km/week of running and a good 250km of biking/week.

Today, i'm struggling to get at least 30km/week of running and 30km/week biking. Lets not even talk about swimming.

Just like how Shazly asked me a while ago, "how's your swim? wait, ARE YOU SWIMMING?"

Today is 1st August. Today i received two training program for IronMan from two fellow IronMan team mates.

Neither one could fit into my life now, or should i say...is my life fit to do any now?