Evil Not Exorcized

I’m frustrated. Been feeling kind of low with regards to training. I can’t fault myself technically as I’ve not been training hard enough. But perhaps the inability to train enough is what has been making me feel really down.

I know that I am not any pro or even registered amateur or even athletes that consistently been clocking good timing and wining some money.

I know I am a sponsored average Joe which is doing my best to justify my presence.

I’ve been marked by others which are clearly and visibly better than me in terms of sports achievements and even finishing. I might appear arrogant, but that is because you don’t know me.

Today (as in Saturday), I joined the rest of the worthy people for a 90km spin in Putrajaya. I am excited. With Desaru just right at the corner and (I’m not making it a secret, but I’m telling all of you) that I am hoping to better the 6:30 timing I did last year. It would be tough. Really tough. I’ve already failed to post a new PB even with a spanking new fast bike... But I know it’s easy to blame the gear for my inability.

What separate those that say they can’t and those that say they can are deep inside the heart.

I know I have it.

Today, I thought I had it. I was out to exorcise the evil bike.


Evil


With horns


Evil with small rear end

While everyone named their bike, I chose not to. That is because I’ve not tamed him/her yet.

It is like trying to tame a wild horse.

I was doing great the first 30km. Managed to finish the Mosque to Cyberjaya Lodge to KLIA u-turn is 54 minutes. Average was a good cool 32km/h.

Azmar and AJ basically kept the pressure on me. I could keep up and lead on the flat, but flatter when I climb. AJ makes it looked too simple. Just like TZ, making it looked effortless when climbing hills.

At 40km, I lost both AJ and Azmar. Shazly and gang was about a good km behind.

Then I got lost. Took wrong turning and went back to the KLIA uturn.

Then I felt like shit.

And I know it wasn’t my day.

I stopped at 67km.

Went home.

And did some gardening in my cycling shorts.

The truth is. I am still riding in the shadow of the evil Orbea. He/She remain triumph over me.


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